Chaos dominates enough of our lives

Home sweet home. I’m not going to lie, it was pretty tough leaving my friends and practically moving out of my apartment. By the time I was packing, most of my friends had already left for break, but some of my closer friends were still there. They helped me haul my stuff to my car and they even waited, watching me drive out of the parking lot. Seeing them in my rearview mirror broke my heart and to be honest, I started crying and cried the whole way home. It felt like a somewhat permanent goodbye since I am leaving for Spain. Who knows how long it will be before I see them again.

 I got home. We went up north the next day so we kept busy, but now that I’m home again after Christmas, it’s been a nice break. I haven’t really had much to do besides working at the bar and cleaning or organizing my room since I unpacked everything. Just spending time with my three puppies because let’s be honest, who can stay away from their fur babies? Not to mention getting on the wrong side of my sister just by existing. I used her hair curler once and she got surprisingly angry at me. But it was sitting out on the counter ready to go and mine was still sealed in its package (we got matching curlers for Christmas) and I had to go to work. She got so mad that it was actually kind of interesting. Seriously though, after all of my stuff that she’s used without asking over the years, I don’t think she has any right to get so upset. 

Besides that, I’m not complaining about the relaxing part really, it’s been a really nice break since the stresses of college and school. I was even able to finish the third book of the Outlander series, which has taken me over a year to do because it is so long. 

Going back to school will be interesting. I know for high schoolers, no one really wants to go back after such a short break, and some college students look forward to going back to school and getting out of their parents’ houses and back with their friends again (sorry parents). Usually, I would look forward to going back and seeing my friends along with getting back into a regular school routine, but this time it’s different. I don’t know how it’s going to be in Spain. Does anyone really know what the future brings, though? Sometimes it is quite a scary thought. Oh well. We move on and we keep living day to day despite the challenges that face us in life. Like dealing with a little sister who steals my clothes and yet won’t let me use her hair curler. Oh, and happy new year everyone! 

My Determination: "Chaos already dominates enough of our lives. The universe is an endless raging sea of randomness. Our job isn't to fight it, but to weather it together, on the raft of life." - Abed, “Community”